swinG swinG swinGs*

how's me?

2006-08-19T13:38:00.000+14:00

It's been 5 months since I last updated my bloggie. Good thing this one's still alive and there's no spider webs on it! Time to update!

I bestowed myself to work now. I have two part time jobs: a math tutor and a dubber of chinky eyed personas. (It's supposed to be a secret so hush hush!) Loads of money for me haha!! Just kidding! See, I'm a very busy working girl!

My birthday's coming up next week but I don't have plans yet. I'm turning 21 (ewww, bye twenteen) which means I'm already a full pledged adult, which made me think that I should live independently, away from my 'rents. I have plans of renting an apartment or a room perhaps somewhere in Libis and also, I am planning to buy a small condo. Well, a condominium was just a delusion. =)

I have my OWN DIGICAM now! My tita from the states gave it to me as an advance birthday gift. It’s a sony cybershot! It's not a canon, the brand I prefer to have... but 7.1 pixels would be fine. I'm planning to build a multiply site very very soon.

I'm living my life now just the way I want it even if I lack sleep.

So, I'm going to sleep now!

alaala.

2006-03-23T09:22:00.000+14:00

naalala mo pa ba mahal
noong una tayong nagkakilala
sabay umindak ang ating mga paa
sa tugtog na walang nakarinig
kung 'di tayo lamang dalawa

di mo ba maalala sinta
kung paano mo sinabi sa akin
na hindi ako mahirap mahalin,
na kahit mundo ang pagitan
handa mo akong paligayahin

naalala mo ba nang unang tumibok ito
noong nakita ko ang ngiti mo
pinagmamasdan ko ito ng matagal
parang eksena sa isang pelikula
masarap titigan at di nakakasawa

naalala mo ba ang mga oras na
wala tayong ginawa kundi tumawa
kakanta, sasayaw at mag-ngingitian
hanggang sa tumulo na ang aking luha
pupunasan mo ito, at ako'y muling sasaya

maalala mo sana sinta
kung gaano ko kayang gawin ang lahat
kaligayan, pangarap bibitawan
dugo, puso o buhay ko man
walang alinlangan sayo'y handang ibibigay

maalala mo pa kaya mahal
ang ating nabuong sariling mundo
bagama't maliit at hindi kalakihan
ito'y umikot sa atin, umapaw, napuno
ng mga alaalang sana'y iyo pang natatago

nguni't nasaan na ang lahat sinta ko?
hindi ko na makita ni isa sayo
nagtatago lang ba dyan sa puso mo
o tuluyan mo nang ibinaon parang bato
may pag-asa pa bang maibalik ito?
Sana'y sabihin mo.

Looking through the rear mirror.

2006-03-22T07:52:00.000+14:00

I told myself, "I hate this guy", more than I can barely count but the thought of losing him frights me. Just seeing him there with the dimples on his right cheek whenever he smiles, or watching his sweat running down through his thick eyebrows while he's driving on a metro traffic, and that eyes that have seen me translucently for four years makes my abhorrence disappear. I get so weak that I can't escalate from where I am. I blushed even without a cheek tint. And even if my mind commands my hand to slap him on the face, my heart refuses to. My focal point would want to kiss him right there and then, yearning for it, hankering for his warm embrace.

The long drive around the metro seems like diminutive. Time ticks so fast, like the thumping of hasty drumming. He held my hand and put it in the stick shift with his fingers locking mine. I can feel the tautness of his hand, as if saying "please don’t let go". All of our blissful memories flashed back right through me, blazing in my head like a VHS tape rewinding. All dreadful, all ghastly moments are suddenly eradicated from it. It made me think and wonder that we have come so far to give up on this almost perfect relationship that we used to have.

I was wrong to assume that there is someone out there far better than him. Sure there is, but I can't sense the sparks of shimmering illumination. What I see in them was an ember glowing dim, subsiding as time passes by and will later turn into clinkers of dust. His was as bright as a summer sun, vividly shining and unvague. Even if its luster will make my eyes hurt, he can always shed some of it to make me feel better.

As he was droving me home, I am staring at him closely. I have loved this guy so much that all I want to do was to let him go, but then I just can’t. There’s a battle of hub and wits and the hub would always take over. "You should stay", it says. A part of my mentality would always want to let go but then again, my focal point will win the clash.

Without hesitations, I lean over his shoulder and whisper, "I love you still." No words has fumbled through his mouth, instead he tilt up my chin and kissed me. The lip-lock tells so much than words can utter. We want each other back again and we would not want to let each other go. The rear mirror was the only witness.

what color should my blog be

2006-03-21T18:42:00.000+14:00

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.
You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.
You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

Purple? hmmpf! I thought it would be an orange. But hey, i'm not distant! So all i can say is, this is 95% true. harhar!

a bag that i so love.

2006-03-19T05:25:00.000+14:00

share ko lang yung bag ko na si charlie chaplain yung print.
mahal ko to. haha! wala lang!

MRT. Sakay ako ulit!

2006-03-16T23:50:00.000+14:00

Kanina, first-time kong sumakay ng MRT nang mag-isa lang. Ayus, gabi pa yun at take note! Southside pa! Ako'y isang taga northside na tao at kung mapadpad man ako sa south, siguradong maliligaw ako. Bigla tuloy akong naging proud sa sarili ko dahil nakauwi ako ng hindi naka-cab. Kaso sa MRT, ganito ang eksena:

- Makakapasok ka ng tren nang hindi naglalakad dahil matutulak ka papasok sa dami ng taong nasa likod mo.
- Dapat hawakan ng maigi ang tiket dahil baka ito'y mahulog. At kung mahulog man, hindi ka na makakayuko upang kunin ang nahulog mong ticket sa dami ng tao.
- Maaaring may makatabi kang taong may earphone sa tenga na sobrang lakas ang pagpapatugotg at ipinapakita nya ang kanyang iPod nano. (eh ano ngayon, meron naman ako iPod mini? pbbbt!)
- Kailangan matindi ang kapit mo sa mga hawakan at dapat ay matinik ka sa pagbabalanse upang hindi ka mapatumba sa katabi mo.
- Kahit may bakante nang upuan, hindi ka pagbibigyan ng mga lalaki. Makapal mukha nila, sila pa ang uupo. Tsk tsk.

Pero, nadama ko ang pagka-kolehiyala ko nang sumakay ako ng MRT. Wala kang sariling sasakyan, walang tatay na susundo, walang taxi-cab. Ikaw lang mag-isa at ang pera mo sa iyong bulsa. Matipid ang pamasahe. Katorse lang mula Ayala hanggang GMA-Kamuning. Tapos kinse lang ang tricycle mula GMA-Kamuning hanggang bahay namin. Ikumpara mo sa gas na full tank na 1,300 pesos na magagamit mo lang ng ilang araw. Ikumpara mo sa taxi cab na 30 pesos pag-upo mo pa lang. Biruin mo, makakabili pa pala ko ng isang pantalon o kaya damit kung nag m-MRT ako araw araw? Nguni't naisip ko, wala palang tren papuntang paaralan ko. At, kung magkaroon man, malapit na pala ko magtapos ng kolehiyo. Woot woot.

Mas pipiliin ko na yata ngayon na sumakay ulit ng MRT kaysa pahawakin ako ng manibela pag gabi. Kahit sardinas pa sa loob ng tren, nasiyahan naman ako.

bye bye old layout!

2006-03-15T23:05:00.000+14:00

Say hello to my new layout, entitled "SWINGS". It is a vector of a girl sitting on a swing, looking far far away. The swinging of a swing represents life's ups and downs, as it moves back and forth and so on. As my self-saying goes, "The world is a playground, and life is pushing my swing". This is really a hard work and I've been working on it the whole day. In short, madugo ang gumawa ng isang layout! My head is in ache when i finished doing this, so please lang, NO COPYING.

And special thanks to Up Dharma Down's Fragmented for my background music! Yey!
(the mp3 is secured, so don't worry Pol Yap. Haha!)

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You know as well as I do,
We can't just be friends
There's more than that between us
That will never come to an end.

Plenty of times I wanted to say
Either take me whole or none at all,
But that involves risking the none
And that's something I don't want at all.

My heart beats whenever I hold you
At an alarming speed and unsteady pace
And it's a simple smile that brings me pain
But I welcome anything from you all the same.

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Hmmm, Haloscan where are you? Are you down or what?
Where did my comments go? Huhuhuhu...

finally, broadband na

2006-03-14T19:36:00.000+14:00

Ang weird kahapon, yung telephone number namin napunta sa iba! Instead na 9**-8493 naging 9**-5533! Lahat tuloy ng tumatawag dito sa bahay nasisigawan ko ng wrong number! AMP!!! Well, well.. pero masaya ako kahapon dahil nakabitan na kame ng tantarantantan: DSL! Yey, ang tagal kong hinintay si manong pldt para pumunta dito sa bahay. Sa sobrang saya ko, pinagmeryenda ko pa siya ng ensaymada at coke.

Hmmm. Sinabihan ako ng kapatid ko kanina na, "ate, nagiging vain ka na! andami mong pictures! sobra!" wahahahah! Aba, ngayon na nga lang ulit ako nagkaroon ng camera fone! Haha! Pero ok lang naman maging vain diba? At eto lang masasabi ko, maganda talaga ko sa litrato. :D Totoo yun.

Badtrip ako sa friendster. Naisip ko kasi kagabi (dahil broadband na ang pc ko) na ayusin ulit ang friendster profile ko. Kaso ang panget ng kinalabasan! Lumabas ang vanity side ko, errr! Kasi hindi ko masyadong gusto i-design ang friendster dahil limited lang ang pwedeng ayusin. Balak ko din itong palitan kapag nakaisip na ako ng magandang theme. Check it out! It's a summer layie.

kahapon, ngayon, mamaya at bukas.

2006-03-12T12:50:00.000+14:00

Kahapon: Nalaman ko na ang d'best na bookstore sa Pilipinas ay ang Fully Booked. Nakaayos ang mga libro doon alphabetically. And heto pa!!! Kumpleto ang kanilang Murakami books. Hmpf, malas ko lang dahil hindi ko nadala ang pera ko (worth 599 kasi ang isa). Nahihiya naman ako umutang sa kasama ko! At, at.. may nakita akong orange notebook na may star na super uber cute! at grid notebook pa siya! Kaso, hindi ko binili kasi hindi ko naman magagamit! *()@*^$@!!!

Ngayon: Late ako nagising kasi alas-dos na yata ako nakatulog kaninang madaling araw. Na-adik yata ako sa NY nights na laro sa aking cellphone. Nagluto tito ko ng masarap na shanghai rolls na gawa sa bangus kaniang lunch. The best! Yum! Nakikinig na naman ako ng the indefinite transition of perceived realities habang naiisip ko yung notebook at yung murakami na nakita ko kahapon sa Fully Booked. Di bale, babalikan ko yun! (yung murakami lang)

Mamaya: Hindi ko pa alam kung saan ako pupunta mamaya. Baka sa mall o kaya sa abs-cbn. Ewan. Gusto ko na mag-cosmic cycling o mag yoga dun sa 4th floor ng ELJ Building. Na-mimiss ko na si kuya teng at ang kanyang flying away at ever after moves sa bisikleta. Gusto ko pa din ituloy ang pag-ha-hunting ko ng Ms. Saigon na CD. Hindi ako susuko!!! Bwahahaha!

Bukas: Bukas ay lunes at pupunta ako ng eskwelahan. May itatanong lang ako at titignan kung pasado ang mga subjects ko. *praypray* Hindi ako dadaan sa mga lugar kung saan mumultuhin ako ng ating mga alaala.

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I'm missing McLo Acis, a friend when I was studying in CEU. We have a tandem called "The Rockstar and The Celebrity!" I remembered, nag-audition kami sa isang Mandarin singing contest! Nako I remembered pa, I'm crushing our Lao Shi in basic mandarin class kaya sinamahan niya ako!

a proposed CD cover of our upcoming album! hahaha!

I use to sing this song with McLo while playing the guitar.
It's a self compo, entitled Leap of Faith.
He helped with some of the chords and tones.
And he's the only one who really appreciated it.
You don't know how much I miss you McLo!!! Huhuhuhu...

LEAP OF FAITH

One less call to answer
Feeling full of despair
Don't think I can get through it
Just one last prayer

And it's a leap of faith
When you believe there's someone out there
It's a leap of faith
When you believe that someone cares
And when I call out to you
Will you be right there?
Right there.

Searching for the answer
Nobody seems to care
Oh how I wish that you were here
beside me
To wipe away my tears

Waiting for the answer
Remembering times we would share
Somehow I feel you here beside me
Even though you're not there

And I'll be waiting by the window for your smile to come through
And I'll be waiting in the darkness when I call out to you
And I'll remember when you told me
I could trust in you

sawi. tsk tsk.

2006-03-10T20:43:00.000+14:00

I went to Cubao yesterday to buy Mitch Albom's "Five People You Meet in Heaven" or anything by Murakami (a Japanese author) because I want something new to read and I am bummed. But unfortunately, that book by Mitch Albom is out of stock and they have no idea where does Murakami books can be found in their stalls. So I ended up buying nothing. Bummer!

Since I was frustrated on buying the books, I decided that I'm going to look for the Ms. Saigon CD I was dying to have since I was in high school (I am a big Lea Salonga aficionado). Given that I now have the money of buying that 1thou+ CD (that was before, I am not sure if it is 1thou+ until now), I got so excited that I rummage around record bars and department stores all over Cubao to FINALLY purchase my reverie of almost 5 years in the making! I was searching all over Cubao record bars and department stores but there are no traces-vestiges-whatsoever of Ms. Saigon. Hmpf! My gulay! Pati CD, wala akong nabili!

I need some book-cd hunting somewhere there over south side malls! Sino may gusto samahan ako??? I heard there are lotsa stocks of Murakamis and Mitch Alboms sa Glorietta! And I think meron Ms. Saigon CD sa tower records dun! I frantically need somebody's help with this one. Maliligaw ako sa south, haha! Or nonetheless, donate na lang kayo kahit isa lang sa mga yan. Maliligayahan ako. Pramis! Libre ko pa kayo ng frappe. Weeeeeeeeee!

ctrl c + ctrl v morsel morsels

2006-03-09T15:33:00.000+14:00

while i was browsing the bulletin board on friendster, i found this..

R - You are goodlooking.
A - You are a hottie.
C - You are totally wild crazy.
H - You have very good personality and looks.
I - Love is something you deeply believe in.
E - You are popular with all types of people.
L - You always make other people smile when you smile.

cool, huh?
but some are not true, though.
hmmm..

another medyo-walang-kwentang survey..

1. Saan ka madalas tumambay pag walang klase?
- bakanteng room or kaya sa corridor

2. Bakit bawal tumapak sa damo?
- kasi daw mamamatay ito. ewan.

3. Pinaka-kadiring nahawakan mo?
- palaka. kadiri talaga, ang slimy! nakoooo!

4. Nakatulog ka na ba sa klase?
- ay oo! haha! organic chem class

5. Nasasarapan ka ba sa Melon?
- yup! actually peborit ko to.

6. Pag di tumibok ang puso?
- wala ka nang magagawa kundi sundin ito. uyy, donna cruz!

7. Bakit mo to naisipang sagutan?
- kasi wala akong magawa. yun lang yun.

8. Nasubukan mo na bang tulugan ang nagtuturo
mong teacher?
- oo! wahahaha! sa sobrang puyat siguroo! aba, hindi ko naman sinasadya!!!

9. aLin mas gusto mo, Boracay o Baguio?
- boracay na siempre!

10. Sino crush mo? e mahal mo?
- kras? nakoo, marami. mahal? isa lang dapat.

11. Masarap bang matulog?
- oo naman.

12. Naaaliw ka ba sa mga ilaw sa RoxasBlvd?
- hmm.. hindi ko yata nakikita kasi hindi naman ako dumadayo doon.

13. Nakapasyal ka na ba sa Africa?
- nako plano ko yata

14. Hinimatay ka na ba?
- close to himatay lang.

15. Broken-Hearted?
- many times before

16. Nakainom ka na ba ng tubig sa dagat?
- oo. at maalat ito ng sobra.

17. Nakagat ka na ba ng aso?
- hindi pa naman.

18. Umalis ka na ba ng bahay na pambahay ang
suot?
- siempre naman. wala pa ngang tsinelas.

19. Antukin ka ba?
- hindi. masarap magkape eh.

20. Bakit mo naisipang mag-register sa Friendster?
- gaya gaya lang ako actually!

21. Ano ang wallpaper/logo ng pc/laptop mo?
- sa pc? pink star with effects and something somethings na gawa ko. sa laptop naman? hmpf pinalitan ng kapatid ko ng pic nyang panget.

22. Nakatapon ka na ba ng tubig sa loob ng bus?
- oo. nabasa pa nga ako. lolz

23. Nawalan ka na ba ng cellphone?
- wahhh! next question please!

24. Bored ka ba?
- medyo lang...

25. Nakikipaglaro ka ba sa labas?
- nung paslit pa lang ako

26. Vain ka ba?
- hindi. sobrang hindi.

27. Pano kung may nagsabi na "ang corny mo"?
- eh corny naman talaga ako sa totoong buhay.

28. Sino ang nasa isipan mo ngayon?
- si ano.

29. Love mo siya?
- aba, oo naman.

30. pinaka significant na numero para sa iyo?
- lahat ng numero, mapanegatib man o positib, kahit unidentified ay significant para sa akin. weeeeeeeeeee! :)

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ito ang resulta ng walang magawa sa buhay.
blog blog blog ng kahit anik-anik na lang.

chel's day!

2006-03-08T15:50:00.000+14:00

I need a break. Most of my friends say I need it badly. I've been lacking sleep the whole week and my eyebags are getting worst than ever. From finishing projects through finalizing my thesis, trip out of town, nightlong gimiks with friends and all day coffee talks, I realized that I've never been so tired in my whole life. I need sleep, and lots and lots of it. So I declare it's my day today. Weeee! I therefore pledge that I will not leave the house today and I will rest the whole day! (Unless you'll treat me a vanilla frappe grande! Wahahaha!)

my favorite pic as of today. waw, parang pang-VTR!!! hindi ba ako mukhang bakla???

Some highlights:

1. I am now tanned. I hate it (because it's not pantay) at the same time loving it (because I waited a year kaya to have my skin tanned again!).
2. I now have a brand new camera phone. Wow, white and gold pa!!!
3. I am addicted to Jollibee's and Starbucks' coffee jelly lately.
4. Jeane's heart is broken. And she's crying to death last night. Lagot ka sa akin Andy!!!
5. Instead of going to starbucks last night, we ended up at Esquinita! The best ang Grafitti's caramel frap made by kuya sweet!! You should try it!
6. I've found out that Lipton green tea is a laxative and a diuretic. It can make you pupu and wiwi.
7. I am being vain lately. Nagbabaon na ako ngayon ng pocket mirror at suklay!
8. I will going to dispose my sun sim!!! Kinain ang 100 pesos load ko at nagpadala lang ng mga Sarah Geronimo and Mark Bautista ringtones and blah blah!
9. I am now a professional CD-burnist (huh?)!!! Yey!
10. I'm missing someone right now. Uyy, sino kaya?

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some kodak moments with my weirdo friends, when the three of us are wearing white shirts!!!

at jollibee! si carmi with the pacifier! inagaw pa nya sa baby yan!!! si kring plastic ang smile!!

at the moviehouse! while waiting for the feature presentation! high tech kasi ang ginamit na cellphone dyan.. merong red light effect..

smell the footie of kring! *sniff sniff* yuckieeee!!! mukhang nahilo ako sa amoy!!! wahahah!

musta naman ako?

2006-03-03T22:43:00.000+14:00

Wow, march na pala! At hindi ko yata namalayan na march na pala! Kaya pala nagtataka ako dahil mainit ang halik ni haring araw sa aking balat. At malamang, hindi na naman papantay ang kulay ng aking balat. Pero masaya ako dahil nasusuot ko yung bago kong shades!!! Sa nakaraang mga araw, ako'y nakukulangan sa tulog dahil sa paggawa ng mga proyekto sa eskwelahan. Ika nga ng aking tita dear, uminom daw ako ng gatas pampalakas, yung mainit daw. Kaso, nung ginawa ko, inantok naman ako ng sobra. Tuloy, hindi ko natapos ang dapat kong tapusin. Nakooo! Konting tiis na lang itoooo!

Nasabi ko na ba na binura ko ang account ko sa my space? I can't make the code work kasi! Nako, hindi ako makatulog kaya binura ko na lang! And then, gumawa ako ng bagong account! Yey, napagana ko din sa wakas. And that made my day. Ayun, ang saya saya ko na. Una pa yung up dharma down sa friends list ko, siempre second yung may bagong-gitara-na-bininyagan-nung-march-1-sa-magnet! :) (kras na kras kita kung alam mo lang!)

Inaabuso ko na ang album ng paramita sa aking player at sa aking ipod. Mahal ko na yata si Ria. Idol idol! Galing galing! Ang iniisip ko ngayon ay kailan ko kaya mapapa-autograph yung cd? Kasi naman yung isa dyan, binigay nga wala namang pirma! Aysus! Joke lang ___! Lol. Peace tayo keemps! Este este... Haha! Di bale, hindi naman tayo close pag nandyan sila eh... or galit ka na sa akin??? Hmpf!

Quatro, 4, si, four, ika-apat pala bukas!
Ahemmm, `eto na naman si ako!
Impromptu poem again.. Cge, let's try try..

Masarap malaman na
Hanggang ngayon ay nariyan ka
Ayokong bilangin ang buwan
O ang mga taon man
Simula nang tayo'y nagkakilala
O ang mismong araw
Na tumibok ito dahil sayo
Basta ang alam ko
Ikaw pa din ang nilalaman nito

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Hindi masyadong maganda, pero pwede na! Harhar!

i feel orange

2006-02-27T15:08:00.000+14:00

when i feel orange, it means i am bummed. haha!
hmm.. so, vanity strikes me. LOL.

bagong gising!

sa stairs namin papuntang rooftop.. huwaw, and featuring my latest addiction: avia avia aviatorssss!!! kadiri ang oily ng face, hindi pa kasi naghilamos!!!

what a night

2006-02-26T11:15:00.000+14:00

Eastwood is crowded and will always be during Saturdays. So the gang decided that we should try bars at Tomas Morato. The curling iron and a little bit of make-up was a lot of help last night. At least manong guard was convinced that I do look 18 years old (even if my real age is 20). Yey! No more ineng-where-is-your-ID and takas-ng-inom-ng-beer!!! Woohoo!

There are so many girls there with faces like a coloring book. Over maked-up was the term. And there's this girl that's bugging me on the comfort room. It was like, "Hello? Anong problema mo? Nagsasalamin lang ako?". Ang feeling, mukha naman siyang bakla!!! Bwahahaha! Anyhoo, the dancing and the partying started at 12 midnight. And yes, even if God doesn't gave me the talent to dance, ehemm...why not try?

Three guys I've met at Pier One last night:

1. Mr. Koreano. Hmm.. tall and obviously chinky eyed. He was good at dancing hip hop music. Nanliit naman ako. So he thought I was one of his kinfolks! LOL. But what distracts me is the cigarette puffing while we were dancing. The smell of the smoke was absorbed by my hair. Yuck! So, I did make an excuse that I have to pee. Thank God, some girl saved my life.

2. Mr. Pink Polo Shirt. Actually, I first saw this guy on a Rio Grande ride at EK. The second encounter was at Fitness First ABS-CBN, where he was competing with Gelo on a bench press weight lifting contest. He was introduced to me last year during that so called match. Mr. Pink Polo Shirt was also there and yes, he still remembered me. We didn't dance, just a plain almost-yelling short talk. He reminds of Gelo in so many many ways. The conio slang when he talks, the well-defined-toned muscles on his arms, the height, the skin headiness, the two bling blings on his ears, and the dimple on his right cheek. He was so much like him. When they stand side by side, they looked like twins. And who is Mr. Pink Polo Shirt guy? Polo Ravales.

3. Mr. Jabaripiko. I use to hate this guy because he seems epal on his band and his kili-kili is always wet. But I didn't notice him at first. While I was talking to Mr. Pink Polo Shirt, he was introduced to me. It so happened that Mr. Jabaripiko was a good friend of Mr. Pink Polo Shirt. "Jay, this is Chel." Mr. Jabaripiko wore a black v-neck tight fitting shirt. And yes, he's as chubby as he was on MTV. He asked me to dance. So the girls on the bar began to hate me. They were crushing on Mr. Jabaripiko. They would bump on him and make papampam. How pathetic. He asks if there's a Chinese blood running through my veins, I said wala! BWAHAHAHA! He asks for my number but I didn't give the right one. I felt delighted because meron pa palang mas panget sumayaw kaysa sa akin. LOL.

What a night. Para akong celebrity.

a long talk and a realization

2006-02-25T00:54:00.000+14:00

Had a long talk with someone the other night. A talk that's long overdue. Our relationship has never been exactly "boring". Our peaks and valleys have been so dramatic and so frequent that I just gave up on the relationship. Ironically, this friendship keeps resurrecting itself. And no matter how many times we've fought, we've always patched things up. Our knowledge of each other is so intense and extensive that we can't help but love and hate each other.

No matter how far apart we are, our concern and compassion for each other never really change. We exchange all sorts of hurtful words during these painful situations, but if one of us is in trouble, the other one's willing to help out (or at the very least, find out about what happened).

Just recently, we had a 6 month on-and-off-season, the longest we've ever had. And when we started talking to each other again, our comfort level was still the same -- it was like the time we spent apart never even happened!

I've said, "I hate this person" so many times in the past, when we'd fight and I'd be right and he'd be wrong (kidding). I've said, "Let's forget about this" and "I gave up" more times than I can count. Strangely enough, I realize I still really do care about him.

tugpuk-pugak. lub-dub. (ikalawang bersyon)

2006-02-24T09:44:00.000+14:00

Tugpuk-Pugak. Lub-Dub. Ikalawa.
ni: Rachiel Cuaresma

Ngayon ay alam kong abot na kita
Pagka't mundo nati'y nagkasalubong na
Umayos ang lahat, nalaman natin na
Maling magmahal ng higit sa isa
Sinundan ang puso't bumalik sa kanila

Nguni't bumalik sa dating pangyayari
Kung kailan Niya tayo unang napagtagpo
Sabay na sabay at walang kalabis-labis
Pusong humilom ay muling nasugatan
Marapat bang pagalingin o hayaan na lamang?

Tugpuk-Pugak. Pakinggan mo kaya ang pag-iingay
Sumusigaw sa lakas, sa iyong bawa't pagpalo
Sinasabi'y baka mali, maaring maging tama
Anino ka lang ba ng mapait na alaala?
O multo lang ng magandang pagsasama?

Lub-Dub. Lumakas ang bawa't pagpintig
Ang dating nanahimik , may binulong muli
Kung mas higit ang isa't limutin mo siya
Dahil isa lang ako't 'di magiging dalawa
Kung susundin mo ko ay liligaya ka

TUGPUK-PUGAK. TUGPUK-PUGAK.
Sa tunog nito ako unang nahulog sa iyo
Sa ingay din nito, dahan-dahan akong lalayo
Upang hindi mo mapansin ang bawa't hakbang
Paghakbang kong papalayo sa piling mo

LUB-DUB. LUB-DUB.
Sana'y narinig mo ang aking puso
Nagpapasalamat ito ng taos sayo
Hinilom mo ang sugat, pinunan ang kulang
Nguni't ngayo'y kailangan na nitong magpaalam

ARAY

2006-02-22T20:41:00.000+14:00

the image above tells it all..

quoting armi:

"sana'y nagtanong ka lang hindi mo lang alam, ako'y iyong nasaktan.. ARAY!!!"

a funny YM conversation with kuya pol yap

2006-02-21T01:16:00.000+14:00

1.) WOW, KILALA PALA KO NI KUYA POL YAP

rachiel_dc: kuya pol yap, nakita ko po kayong online sa yahoo group
pol yap: hello rachiel ba name mo?
rachiel_dc: opo, kahit chel na lang po.
rachiel_dc: haha
rachiel_dc: kung natatandaan nyo, ako yung kasama ni alpo sa magnet
pol yap: ahhhhh oo alala kita hehe
pol yap: ilan taon ka na ba ?
pol yap: bat mo ko ko pino-po?
pol yap: hehehe
rachiel_dc: 20 na ko
rachiel_dc: lolz
rachiel_dc: ayaw nyo po ba?
pol yap: tagan san kba?
rachiel_dc: quezon city
rachiel_dc: pero baka bukas punta ko sa UP gig nyo
pol yap: ayun sa palma hall nga raw kami
rachiel_dc: yup haha
pol yap: si alpo punta?
rachiel_dc: hmmm, siguro
rachiel_dc: gigmates kame
rachiel_dc: haha
pol yap: yun napala ang tawag don nohhh
rachiel_dc: yup, GIGMATES
pol yap: gaano katagal na kayo manood ng gig?
rachiel_dc: nasimulan ko lang nung album launch
pol yap: i see
rachiel_dc: tapos bumili ko ng album
rachiel_dc: tapos yun
rachiel_dc: na adik na ko, lolz
pol yap: awww salamat hehehe
rachiel_dc: sana gawan nyo na ng video yung OO
rachiel_dc: kasi maraming may gusto non
pol yap: baka magkaron ng video nga yon. ewan ko lang kung kelan
pol yap: at kung may funds hehe
rachiel_dc: kuya pol yap, alis muna ko
pol yap: cge ge ge ge

2.) HULAAN ANG TAMANG AGE NI KUYA POL YAP

pol yap: hello wazaapppp
rachiel_dc: kuya ba kita? ilang taon ka na ba?
rachiel_dc: haha
pol yap: hahaha
pol yap: guess mo nga
rachiel_dc: hmm, 22?
pol yap: aww thanks
rachiel_dc: y po?
rachiel_dc: mas matanda ka siguro
rachiel_dc: 23?
rachiel_dc: 24?
pol yap: hahahahaha
rachiel_dc: hmm, i think hindi ka pa 25
rachiel_dc: hanggang 24 lang
pol yap: baka sinilip mo lang sa myspace haha
pol yap: or friendster
rachiel_dc: wahh, hindi po
rachiel_dc: friend na kita sa friendster..
rachiel_dc: lahat kayo, except kuya carlos
rachiel_dc: wala yata sya friendster??
pol yap: hehehe
pol yap: diba friendster na tayo?
rachiel_dc: yup yup
pol yap: wala sya friendster pero may myspace sya
rachiel_dc: pero hindi ko sinilip, pramis
pol yap: naksss
rachiel_dc: pramis
rachiel_dc: haha
rachiel_dc: ano po age nyo talaga?
pol yap: 17
pol yap: ...
rachiel_dc: wah?
rachiel_dc: di naman
rachiel_dc: haha
rachiel_dc: eh di ate pala ko?
pol yap: ayy
pol yap: hahaha
pol yap: oo
pol yap: ate ka
pol yap: hehe
pol yap: 24
rachiel_dc: haha
rachiel_dc: eh di inamin mo din pala KUYA pol yap
pol yap: talagang KUYA ah, hahahaha!

3.) BALENTYMS AND MY "FOOTIEE"

rachiel_dc: kuya polyap musta naman po sa tagaytay
pol yap: malamig masaya
pol yap: mahangin
rachiel_dc: sayang hindi ako nakapunta
pol yap: madaming inumin
pol yap: hahaha
rachiel_dc: masarap yun pag may irog ka! wahahahaha
pol yap: hahaha totoo yonnnnnn
pol yap: kamusta pala valentines mo? ilang bulaklak nataggap mo? haha
rachiel_dc: wala nga eh
rachiel_dc: nakatanggap ko ng foot spa massager
rachiel_dc: lolz
pol yap: uy mas okay yon noh kaysa bulaklak
pol yap: haha
rachiel_dc: mukha nga
rachiel_dc: kc ayoko naman talaga ng bulaklak
rachiel_dc: gas-gas na ang roses at chocolates
rachiel_dc: eh ang balentyms mo naman, musta?
pol yap: haha saken wala. sa bahay lang at gig
rachiel_dc: oo nga busy busy nyo nga ngayon
rachiel_dc: ikaw polyaps, wala ka bang napupusuan?
rachiel_dc: wala ka bang kras kay ate armi?
pol yap: HAHAHAH TSISMIS KA AH
pol yap: hahahahaa
pol yap: wala eh
pol yap: malas nalang nya
pol yap: so babalik mo na yung foot spa massager? or gagamitin mo nalang?
rachiel_dc: aba, gagamitin ko na yun noh
rachiel_dc: akin na yun, walang bawian
pol yap: pahiramm
pol yap: hahaha
rachiel_dc: cge
rachiel_dc: hahaha
rachiel_dc: bakit kaya hindi bulaklak binigay sa kin non? wahahaha
rachiel_dc: weirdo, foot spa massager pa
pol yap: oonga eh ang weird
pol yap: tas mas mahal pa ba yan kay sa bulaklak?
pol yap: hehehe
pol yap: patingin ng paa bukas
pol yap: heheheheehe
rachiel_dc: wahahaha
rachiel_dc: ganda naman ng paa ko
pol yap: salute!
rachiel_dc: malapit nako magtapos kuya polyaps! yipeeee!
pol yap: abaaa manlibre kaaa
rachiel_dc: cge baaa
rachiel_dc: haha
rachiel_dc: bastaaaa kantahan nyo ko ng we give in sometimes
pol yap: oo namannnnnn
pol yap: matakaw kaming banda
rachiel_dc: nakoo
rachiel_dc: haha
pol yap: nyahahahaha
rachiel_dc: basta may libreng kantaaa
pol yap: oo namannn
pol yap: oi waittt una muna akooo
rachiel_dc: cge kuya polyappppp
rachiel_dc: ingat ingat
rachiel_dc: baka punta kame ni alpo bukas sa gig nyo
pol yap: ayan sigeee wear ur best tsinelas at husgahan natin kung baket foot spa ngaaaaa!!!
rachiel_dc: hahahaha
rachiel_dc: cge cge
rachiel_dc: may cutics pa nga akong kulay pink
rachiel_dc: haha
pol yap: nako ang girll
pol yap: hahaha
pol yap: ingat ingat
rachiel_dc: wahahaha
rachiel_dc: cge see you bukas kuya polyappp
rachiel_dc: mahal ko kayo UdD
pol yap: we labs yu toooo and ur footiee
pol yap: hehehehee

*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*`*

mahal ko kayo Up Dharma Down kahit hindi nyo mahal ang aking footiee! wahahah! :) salamat kuya pol yap dahil hindi mo naman nilait yung footiee ko kanina!!! weeeeeee, sa susunod ulit na gig! aja aja!

a poem written in less than an hour

2006-02-20T03:30:00.000+14:00

IF I WERE TO LOSE YOU

somebody asked me
if i were to lose you
in what way would i want it would be

and there was silence
sadness in my heart
whispered no way
i want it would be
there's so much more to what i feel
i didnt know how much i needed you
to stay with me all the way
i only knew when

somebody asked me
if i were to lose you
in what way would i want it would be

here i am still i cant think
of any way of losing you
i want to keep you forever
that i dont want to think about it
all i want is for you to stay
please stay
then i dont need to answer

if somebody asks me
if i were to lose you
in what way would i want it would be
coz you'll forever be with me

vintage raybans

2006-02-19T17:27:00.000+14:00

i just want to post

how i suuuper uber doooper luv my new aviators!!! :)

wahahaha!

woohoo!

chel, the pretending rockstar!

it won't look good on me if i smile... so do the snobbish pose! aha!

but it will anyway! so, smile and show some teeth!

huling sulyap sa isang lugar

2006-02-18T00:22:00.000+14:00

Mataas ang sikat ng araw kanina nguni't hindi ko ito inalintana. Pinili kong sumakay ng jeep pagpasok sa paaralan. Kahit mabigat ang aking bag, o nakalimutan ko man ang aking panyo upang panglaban sa usok, pinili ko pa din mag-jeep. Hindi ako masyadong nakasandal sa aking inuupan dahil punong-puno ito ng mga pasahero, karamihan ay kapwa ko mag-aaral. Mapapansin mo ang kanilang mga mukha. Ang iba'y nag-tetext, merong nakabuklat ang libro at nag-aaral, mayroon may dalang walkman at kumakanta ng pabulong, may walang imik at mayroon ring parang problemado sa exam niya mamaya. Nguni't ako, pinagmamasdan ko sila isa-isa habang nakakapit ako sa bakal na hawakan ng jeep.

"Nais ko na talagang makaalis sa lugar na ito"... ganoon ang palagi kong sinasabi dati nung una kong pasok dito. Nalilito ako sa lugar na ito. Madaming gusali at malawak ang lugar. Minsan na akong naligaw dito at nahuli sa aking unang klase. Nguni't maaliwalas ang lugar, madaming puno at sariwa ang hangin. Masarap tumambay at magbasa ng libro sa mga ilalim ng puno dahil malilim at malinis ang damong iyong mauupuan. Makakapag-isip ka din nang mabuti, lalo na kung ikaw ay nag-susulba ng isang mahirap na aritmetika habang kumakain ng chicken balls at umiinom ng malamig na shake. At sa aking apat na taon dito, nag-iba ang takbo ng isip ko... "Ayoko na yatang umalis pa sa lugar na ito".

Nasa jeep ako habang naglalaro ang mga ito sa aking isipan. Hindi ko namalayan na bababa na pala ako. Muling tumapak ang aking sapatos sa lugar na ito. Tinignan ko ito ng mabuti; ang mga gusaling hiwa-hiwalay, bagama't ang iba rito'y tuklap ang pintura at nakukulungan ng letra sa pangalan, nanatili itong maganda sa aking paningin. Nalanghap ko ang hangin at pinakinggan ang ingay dito. Alam ko na kahit nakapikit ako ay malalaman kong nandito ako sa lugar na ito. Ang daming bumalik sa aking alaala. Alaala ng masayang pagkakaibigan, pag-aaral at pag-sasaliksik sa silid aklatan, pagtulo ng aking pawis sa isang malupit na eksaminasyon, at ang mga gurong halimaw na nagpapagawa ng sobrang daming proyekto. Hanggang sa hindi ko namalayan, biglang tumulo ang luha ko.

Hindi ito ang huling pag-apak ko sa lugar na ito, alam ko. Muli akong babalik dito. At sa pagbalik ko, sasakay ulit ako ng jeep.

some blabbings

2006-02-17T02:44:00.000+14:00

my favorite book as of today. a must read!!! buy kayo! only 150!

you know sometimes, i look like 21.
lack of sleep + stress = eyebags
eyebags = haggard and exhausted
haggard and exhausted + smile + posing^2 + some editing = usual age + 1
therefore, i looked like i'm 21 on this pic.
diba diba diba?

haha, i hope yung ISA DIYAN, hindi mag co-comment sa age ko. LOL. but i know he will anyway!!! cause he always insist that i look like 16 years old.

this is a not-so-good vector work of mine.
i am a pseudo-bogus-ersatz-vector artist.
look at my eyebags! kadiri yak!

these are my pics 3 years ago
i look like a snooty!!!
pero drama drama ko lang yan!
so, don't be deceived! wehehehe!

sa esquinita

2006-02-16T22:22:00.000+14:00

May live band na hindi ko masyadong gusto yung kumakanta, pero komportable naman ang mauupuan. Anim ang resto/bars dito, ang isa ay internet cafe pala. Iisa lang ang CR nila kung hindi ka celebrity. Mamantika masyado ang sisig pero masarap naman ang lemonade at iced tea. Pero sa esquinita, ganito ang mga pangyayari:

- Si Kuya John Lapus (Ms. Sweet) ang maghahanap ng table at mauupuan mo. Tatawagin ka pang "china eyes". Thanks Ms. Sweet! Sa uulitin!
- May makikilala kang mga artista, pero hindi ka maii-starstruck kasi pag nakikita mo sila sa tv para silang corny at jologs. Mandidiri ka na lang at ngingiti pagkatapos! *evil grin*
- May mang-aamoy sa boyfriend mo na bading at magkaka-crush pa sa kanya.
- Merong mag-aabot sayo ng calling card at sasabihing talent scout siya. Mag try ka daw mag VTR para sa isang commercial. Tsk, baka scammer lang…
- Mare-realize mo na hindi pala kagandahan o kagwapuhan ang mga artista sa personal. Baka nga mas maganda ka pa sa kanila dahil naka-make up lang sila!
- Maiinis ka dahil lahat ng mga tao ay may dalang mga digicam, at ikaw ay wala. Pati nga cellphone mo ay walang camera. Aysus! Wala ka tuloy picture kasama ang mga artista! (yak?! Showbizzz!)
- Maiisip mo na sana nandon ka na lang sa freedom bar para manood ng up dharma down o kaya paramita.
- Pero salamat kay Kris Lawrence dahil napasaya niya ang birthday ni Ara!

spread the looove

2006-02-14T10:36:00.000+14:00

Feb 14, a day where NBSB (no boyfriend since birth), brokenhearted, loveless persons used to abhor. This is also the day where dateless individuals chitchat on YM to find someone to date this heart's day (well, this was based on my experience), where the cost of flowers, chocolates and bear stuff toys are proliferated, where fine dining restaurants even malls or sa Jollibee lang are filled with loving couples staring at each other, some holding hands and exchanging the words "I love you". Ayiheeee!!!

To tell you honestly, I am not that well-worned, cliched creature. I don't even want to receive a single flower coming from my boyfriend of 4 years. You may say that I am uncanny but believe me, I am not like that. What really is important is that you've loved, and loved also in return. And love should be celebrated everyday, not only every Feb 14.

So what did I receive this Valentines day? A foot spa massager and a smoochie kissie huggie coming from my boylove and heaps and tons of greetings from my friends and family!!! It was far more than enough.

Spread the love everyone and happy happy valentines day! I lurve you all!

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Oh, and i would like to say happy birthday to hearty!!! i heart you hearty!!! gud luck on your career and kay echo! haha! God bless you! *mwah*

growing up pains

2006-02-13T15:59:00.000+14:00

I am now a year away from teenhood, make it two this coming August. I felt that I am no longer "daddy's little girl". And it only means that my mind has finally reached the levels of what a 20 year old adult should be.

So I began worrying about my future, of what will I'm going to do after college graduation. Will I:

a. Take masterals at DLSU. La Salle is my dream school, ever since. But then the angst that I'm going to live all by myself on a dormitory somewhere in the south, taking train rides instead of cab rides, not having someone to cook or wash my clothes become more challenging and daunting at the same time. But then, it depends if my parents will support me financially.

b. Work at a call center. Whether part-time or full-time, an 18,000 monthly salary would not be bad for a girl like me. It is enough to buy a digicam! Yey! So this is just for material things. And it is because I am too timid to ask my parents for shopping money. But here’s the big question: Will I ruin my ego as a girl-who-loves-math-and-numbers-very-very-much? Imagine this. A mathematician turned into a call center girl. Weird, isn't it?

c. Go out of the country and take a break. The rationale is quite understandable. I want to relax and experience the ambiance of the western for about a year or so. The contamination of the air in the Philippines is killing me. But will I endure the thought of not going to gigs, a year without Gelo, and no chicken balls and mangga with bagoong either? Hmmm.. decisions, decisions!

This is the nuisance of growing up for me. You have to make a decision all by yourself and plan ahead for the near future! After all, I'm the one who'll get profit from it. So I'd better choose wisely from letters a, b or c! Suggestions anyone???

my seven somethings

2006-02-12T05:49:00.000+14:00

Seven things that scare me:

1) flying roaches. utang na loob.
2) hopping, kokak-ing slimy frogs.
3) vehicular accidents.
4) stalkers. scary.
5) life without math and numbers.
6) fireworks. especially sinturan ni hudas.
7) losing someone i love. natural. siempre.

Seven things you like the most:

1) raindrops kissing my face. ayoko mag-payong.
2) graphic designing and web designing. actually, it's an addiction.
3) hanging out with my friends! they make me smile without any effort.
5) the feeling i get when i read mitch albom's books.
6) when i solved a very tough-tricky-hard mathematical question.
7) fried chicken, sisig and pizza. yak, fatty. :)

Seven important things in your room:

1) my computer and laptop siempre. i lab it.
2) the stereo with my ipod.
3) yung mga nike shoes ko!
4) the shoe box with all the memories of my highschool days!
5) my accesory box with all my earrings, borloloys and eyewears.
6) pictures of family, friends and gelo.
7) my good old comfy bed with lots and lots of pillows!

Seven random facts about you:

1) i so love to dance but my feet refuses to. oh, but i can sing well! (i guess so..)
2) i don't eat clams and scallops. i will die if i did.
3) you may think i am quiet but im not. makulit ako sa totoong buhay!
4) i don't look, act and dress my age.
5) i turn the switch on with my knuckles. reason: not to get germs!
6) i crave everyday for starbuck's vanilla frap!
7) i ponytail my hair like a disaster. and im comfortable with it.

Seven things you plan to do before you die:

1) have a degree in math and graphic design
2) audition on any musical plays
3) travel acrooss asia or europe
4) bunjee jump with gelo! weeeeee!!!
5) be a triathlete
6) learn muay thai or kickboxing with chinggay andrada as my personal instructor
7) get married and have kids

Seven things you can do:

1) i can immitate the singing voice of lea salonga! (ows???)
2) i can solve really hard math questions!
3) i can take a bath, dress and ready to go in 10 minutes!
4) i can ride a bike in 3 hours. beat that!
5) i can donate my 1 liter blood.
6) i can tell very corny jokes that you'll laugh because of it's ka-cornihan!
7) i can love so much! aja aja!

Seven things you can't do:

1) i can't dance. don't ask me why.
2) i can't sleep without brushing my teeth and praying.
3) i can't stay mad for more than 3 hours.
4) i can't cook a perfect sunny side up egg. palaging warat.
5) i can't kill a cat. i love ming mings.
6) i can't eat an okra. kahit ano na lang, wag lang okra.
7) i can't manage time. i'm late all the time.

Seven things that attract you to the opposite sex:

1) eyes. chinito.
2) nice set of teeth.
3) brain.
4) broad shoulders.
5) if he is God-fearing.
6) if he can sing, play the guitar or the drums.
7) sense of humor.

Seven things you say the most:

1) ayun.
2) amp.
3) bwiset.
5) shet.
6) aja aja.
7) bwahahaha (actually tawa 'to, with matching padyak ng paa)

Seven celeb crushes (whether local or foreign):

1) kwon sang woo. the korean guy from stairway to heaven.
2) brandon boyd. hawt niya sobra.
3) diego mapa. ang kulit niya kasi kumanta. cge, talon talon talon!
4) brent javier. wala lang.
5) johnny yong bosch. my forever crush since his power ranger days.
6) rain. the korean pop star who plays justin in full house.
7) gelo hipolito -hmmm the soon to be celebrity!

Seven people you want to see to take this quiz:

1) uhmm.. si gelo.
2) carmi. she'll probably take this quiz and paste it sa lahat ng bulletins.
3) kring kring. i wanna know if "kero" (the helpless little stuffie) is important in her room!
4) alpo. tamad yun mag post at magbasa pero baka hindi na siya aabot dito.
5) lizzy. gusto ko malaman kung may crush ba siyang celeb. kasi si wilson lang yata ang crush nya.
6) jeane. i know kasi na more than seven ang isasagot nya sa seven things that attract you to the opposite sex.
7) and anyone na nakarating hanggang dito, uyy, siguro may kras ka sa kin noh? wahahaha!

things on my mind, as of today 1:53 pm

2006-02-11T21:08:00.000+14:00

I'm thinking about...

** going to up dharma down's gig at UP bahay ng alumni today! but i can't!
** i desperately want a vanilla frap, a grande one
** my pencil case sucks big time
** a new haircut, yung may bangs sana
** a total make-over so that i can look my age (coz i don't)
** what to wear later
** how to convince my parents to buy me a digicam
** if im not good at math, what would i be? a dentist?
** why can't i cook a perfect sunny side up egg
** buy and read a new book: Da Vinci Code
** what's the taste of chicken balls with bagoong
** painting my nails purple and pink would look good
** get more closer to God

tugpuk-pugak. lub-dub.

2006-02-10T17:17:00.000+14:00

Naisip ko hindi kita sukat maabot
Pagka't mundo nati'y sadyang di salubong
Hindi ko inakala, di rin napagtanto
Na kahit mahabol kita't akapin ng mahigpit
Sa piling ko'y hindi ka na muling babalik

Ang masukal na daan akin ma'y natiis
O hingalin dahil sa pagtakbo ng mabilis
Nadapa man ako't bumangon nang sugatan
Lahat nang ito'y nauwi rin pala sa wala
Dahil ikaw ngayo'y nagbalik na sa kanya...

Tugpuk-pugak, ingay iyon ng pagtatambol
Na sa bawat pagpalo mo'y minsan ako'y nahulog
Lub-dub naman ang pagpintig ng yaring puso
Sinasabing maling magmahal nang higit sa isa
Bulong ay balikan mo na siya't limutin ka na

- Para sa isang taong hindi ko akalaing makikilala ko.

the come back of the surveiiiiss

2006-02-09T23:17:00.000+14:00

What is your full name?
:: its for you to find out

What color pants are you wearing?
:: black, actually these are yoga pants

What are you listening to right now?
:: we give in sometimes (up dharma down)

What's the last thing you ate?
:: chicken balls last night

Do you wish on stars?
:: not really, but i love stars.. i mean the shape!

If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
:: pink?

How is the weather right now?
:: bahagyang maaraw ang quezon city ngayon

Last person you talked to on the phone?
:: lizzy

How old are you today?
:: 20 na ko. yak.

Favorite drink?
:: iced tea. wag lang po lemonade sa magnet! please lang!

Favorite sport?
:: cycling, yoga (is that a sport?)

Hair color?
:: jet black (naks)

Do you wear contacts?
:: before

Siblings?
:: only one. were like opposites.

Favorite month?
:: january and august

Favorite food?
:: fried chicken, sisig and pizza

Last movie you watched?
:: the incredibles

Favorite day of year?
:: august 27. it is when i turn a year older. pathetic.

What do you do to vent anger?
:: i ride a bike. and spin as fast as i can.

What was your favorite toy as a child?
:: gameboy (hindi pa nga colored noon)

Summer or winter?
:: summer! i want to get a tan again.

Hugs or kisses?
:: hug sabay kiss! ayiheeee...

Chocolate or vanilla?
:: vanilla!

Do you want your friends to write back?
:: i want them to comment!

What is under your bed?
:: monsters?

Who is the friend you have had the longest?
:: hmm. my highschool friends

What did you do last night?
:: music trip

What inspires you?
:: God

What are you afraid of?
:: flying ipis

Plain, buttered, or salted popcorn?
:: buttered

Number of keys your key chain?
:: i have 3

Favorite day of the week?
:: saturday

What did you do on your last birthday?
:: party sa eastwood

How many cities have you lived in?
:: only one. QC. loyal eh.

How many countries have you lived in?
:: one. nako how i wish.

How many cars have you had?
:: mine? lolz. pag iipunan ko muna yung bagong beetle na color red convertible. i love that car. nakoh. can't wait to have it! donate naman kayo!!!

superhero ang usapan

2006-02-09T21:50:00.000+14:00

Minsan naisip ko, gusto kong makalipad tulad ni Darna. Maaari kaya akong makalipad hanggang disneylang hongkong? Walang plane ticket yun. Baka siguro malibre pa ako ng entrance. Ano sa tingin nyo? Pero ayokong maging superhero tulad niya. Hindi dahil sa ayoko ang style ng pagligtas ng mga tao. Ayoko kasi yung suot niya, dahil kung ako ang magsusuot non, ay ewan! Iniisip ko pa lang, nandidiri na ako sa sarili ko.

Kung sakali mang mapagbibigyan ako ng pagkakataon na maging superhero, gusto ko maging si SUPERBOINK!!! Ang cute cute niya kasi sobra! Lumilipad na baboy! Nanggigigil ako sa ka-cutan ni superboink! Kung hindi nyo kilala si superboink, heto siya o!

BA-BE-BU-BE-BOINK! <- ang sinasabi niya tuwing transformation!
(sa totoo lang, miss na kita superboink! sana mapanood ulit kita! idol!)

Pero sa totoo lang, wala akong matinong maisip na i-post. Bago kasi ang aking layout kaya naisipan ko na magdagdag ng kahit ano.

nandyan ka pa din, masaya ako

2006-02-04T20:35:00.000+14:00

hindi mo lang alam, mahal
na sa tuwing hinahawakan mo
ang aking mga kamay..
ang kilig na nadarama,
ay para pa din nung una..

ganon pala ang feeling

2006-01-21T19:11:00.000+14:00

Para kang sinaksak sa puso mo
Hindi ka makagalaw, hindi makasigaw
Maninigas ka at tutumba na lang
Hanggang sa tuluyan ka nang...

Mamatay.

Hindi dahil sa saksak
Kundi sa sakit na nararamdaman
ng puso mong nasugatan.

cheers, cheers, cheers!

2006-01-04T00:26:00.000+14:00

pang __++++ years namen ngayon ni gelo boy kalbo. today's our day so, here are some of our firsts and unforgettable somethings blah blah blah!!!

** first ko siyang na-meet sa culture club libis.. and I thought.. highschool ba yan? Hip-hop ang kanyang drama noon. With the bling-bling and jersey pa nga.
** ang pag-spell niya ng Rachiel ko noon ay "Rachelle" at akala niya, ako ay taga brookside!
** first date namen? Gutsons Anonas (now Nico's Billiards). Inuubo siya at parang kawawa. Harhar. Napansin ko ang dimples nyang medyo malalim at medyo nagka-crush ako sa kanya.
** may dala siyang nestea apple in can nung una siyang pumunta sa bahay namen. Wala siyang dalang flowers or chocolates. Naka red polo pa. Ang cute.
** first fight? Hindi ko siya kinantahan ng "I'd Rather" (ang babaw)
** unang pet name namen is "ses", short for kisses. Kurrrniii!
** best valentine gift? Pinakilala niya ako sa family niya. How sweet.
** saturday is our favorite day. We hang out, minsan eat dinner at libis or timog, or unwind lang somewhere.
** he formulated abyumishutowmats as our txt term for "I love you and I miss you so much"
** hindi namen papalipasin ang araw na galit kami sa isa’t isa. That’s a fact.
** he is my escort during my debut. Ang pogi!
** kakain kami kung saan may burger at fried chicken.
** we go shopping ng sabay. Greenhills is the place to be! yipeee!
** kulang ang oras pag magkasama kame. Gusto ko siyang ibulsa, sa totoo lang.

WOW. I can't believe we've come this far. I thought I was going to lose you. I'm happy I didn't. I’m so glad were together pa din after all those tampuhan and close-to-hiwalayan blues! Thanks for driving me home even if you're pagod na, for all the encouragements and for always backing me up, for saying that im still the cutest even if I look like a haggard with eyebags and a messy hair, and for cooking toasted tender juicy hotdogs whenever im gutom! You're the best, almost perfect boylove in the whole wide world!!! I HEART YOU ANGELO HIPOLITO!

Happy New Year nga ba?? Haha!

2006-01-01T02:02:00.000+14:00

Kakabago ko lang ng layout. Medyo late na yata para sabihin na happy new year! Lolz! So mabilisan na ito.. summary na lang!

Oh, another year again. Sa totoo lang, I hate new years. It's because im turning a year older na naman. 2005 was a hit for me though. I got high grades, gelo and I are doing so well, my sister finally now has her first boyfriend, and many many more happenings. But there are also mishaps. First lolo juanito passed away, then I got confined in a hospital because of pneumonia and anaphylaxis (severe allergic reaction). And hey, I did learn a lot of things from year 2005. Here are some:

>> I am allergic to clams, scallops and the likes. I will flush like hell and will surely can't breathe. (Thank God, im still alive!)
>> Taking vitamin c is necessary!
>> Skipping breakfast won't make you lose pounds. Your metabolism will decelerate, that means you can gain more weight!
>> Hindi laging huli para magbago.
>> Not following your curfew will lessen the trust of your 'rents. Kahit 20 years old ka na!
>> Say "I love you" to those persons important to you before it's too late.
>> Changing your sim card to sun cell is super dooper tipid! Its unlimited kase!
>> Texting shortcuts will deprive your spellings!
>> Don't let your flaws bother you. Imperfections is what makes you perfect.
>> Watching feng shui many times is hindi na nakakatakot! nakakatawa na actually, lalo na si lotlot!!
>> Pumapangit pala ako pag badtrip ako.
>> Choose your friends wisely. And don't trust strangers. They might steal your cellphone!
>> Highschool friends are not ephemeral.
>> Keeping your things organize will save time.
>> Water is good. It will not make you bloat.
>> Always bringing an alcohol can save you from viruses!
>> It is always fun to hang out at starbucks! (with a vanilla frap! Yum yum!)
>> Shopping can not be so tiring if you already knew the things you’re going to buy.
>> Hating someone will do no good. As the saying goes, "Love your enemies!"
>> Gelo will always be a skinhead. Forever and ever. Amen.

I am not used to in making new year's resolutions blah-blah-write-it-in-a-paper-ek-ek because its no use. I will likely not to follow it naman eh! But if there’s one resolution that I'm going to formulate this year? It will be to diet and lose 10 pounds!!! It was too ironic, I know. But it was my last year’s resolution. And last, last year's again. And what happened? Secret. So shall I say, WELCOME 2006?! (Kahit late na!)